Falling gravely ill with a sudden on-set of sepsis, journeying two near death experiences, gifted a miracle to return, and begin a NEW Life .. of HEALING.
As my Story continues .. Being born Sensitive with a natural ability to tune-in to an individual's emotions and communicate with other forms of energy has gifted my living with a heightened sense of awareness.
Since my Near Death Experiences (NDEs) in 2008, I have noticed a natural evolve occurring, bringing with it a deeper level of understanding into the meaning and powerfulness of our existence, as Energy Beings.
Before my NDE's I was well aware of my Sensitivities and had come to Know them well but never had I thought that they would be serving my life in a way that could Heal & Transform lives so incredibly.
Post NDEs .. Earth-bound and gifted with a higher awareness, my life would now be an ever-evolving mindful experience.
Today, my life feels more rooted as an Observer and a Conduit than ever before. I feel separate and somewhat 'Lifted' from my human experience. As foreign as that may sound to read, it has been my Truth. I hold the deepest respect, honour and gratitude to be living within this 'Lifted' State and my passion for Healing & Evolving this universe has become paramount in my Life.
My Near Death Experience(s)...the Journey Home
It was a Sunday afternoon in late August 2008 when my husband had driven me to the ER due to a sudden onset of symptoms (extreme headache, fever/chills, vomiting and physical weakness) that had progressed over a 10-hour period. Source unknown, I had somehow developed an infection and was quickly becoming septic. Shortly after arriving in the ER, I remember blacking out in the waiting room during the nurse's triage process and waking up in the Trauma Room. During one of my brief awake moments, I remember looking up at the blood pressure monitor and reading 49 over 28 .. I was alone to realize my likely nearing fate. The infection had spread to my bloodstream, my organs began to fail, my lungs were filling with fluid and I had developed pneumonia.
Something I will never forget and will cherish forever during my time in the ER's Trauma Room; The Emerge Doctor had returned to my bedside to check on me, leaned in to observe my pupils and I remember telling him I didn't feel very well. He replied; I know you don't, and then asked if I had any family members in the waiting room .. which I didn't at the time as my husband was attending another urgent matter. Realizing I was alone, the Doctor's demeanour shifted into the most consoling friend-like figure. Welcoming my hand to join with his and smiling in silence. In that moment, I truly felt comforted and loved in his presence .. he was sensing my departure .. and very soon thereafter, I had gently faded into unconsciousness.
Through an incredible journey to the other side, miraculously I had returned .. opening my eyes, finding myself in the ICU, with family surrounding my bedside. Some hours later drifting again into unconsciousness, I had journeyed another Near Death Experience. Before returning a second time, I was blessed to have witnessed the presence and LOVE of my late Mother. Both of my near death experiences were very similar in nature with the exception of one other added-miracle. I remember my life uncontrollably fading as if I were calmly drifting off to sleep, then recall a sense that I was floating, in a black quiet space. A cloud-like formation began to appear in front of me. It was greyish-white in colour, oval-shaped and surrounded in a glowing bright white light. Effortlessly and body-less, my 'Energy' somehow was being pulled forward into its center and my memory of the journey was not one that was filled with question or fear. I arrived in a place & space that was filled with complete stillness and my senses became very aware of my non-physical existence. I realized that I had just passed. A quick reflection of my life left me feeling surprised and confused as I was not expecting to pass at such a young age. At the same time I was filled with the most PUREST form of LOVE, completely at peace and very accepting of my fate. Difficult to express in words as this level of love doesn't seem to exist on earth... or at least I've never experienced this incredible immense feeling on earth. The presence of a soft voice entered my space and began repeating my name until I became fully present with it. I received a deep knowing with all certainly that I was in the grace & presence of the DIVINE SOURCE; a force of "ALL-KNOWING", extreme intelligence. I was immersed in a space of complete trust, love & belonging. Suddenly I was blessed and gifted with a higher level of understanding into the human experience and my evolving soul's journey and purpose on earth. The voice then lovingly provided me with the message that my human experience wasn't completed, and guided my focus on breathing and opening my eyes. Miraculously as I focused with mindful intention, I opened my eyes to found myself back in my physical body, in the ICU, surrounded by a medical team who were working passionately to revive my physical form. I had returned .. and after spending 12 days in the hospital, 8 of them in the ICU, I headed home to physically recover and discover my NEW life ..
Published Research & Information on Near Death Experiences Reference: IANDs
PATTERN OF AFTEREFFECTS Around eighty percent of the people who experienced near-death states claimed that their lives were forever changed by what happened to them. On closer examination, though, a pattern of surprising dimensions emerged. Experiencers were not returning with just a renewed zest for life and a more spiritual outlook. They were evidencing specific psychological and physiological differences on a scale never before faced by them. And this was true with child experiencers, as well as with teenagers and adults.
Various researchers have attempted to profile these changes over the years. Even without the necessary funding to do clinical studies, most feel that enough research has been done to justify acknowledging the aftereffects pattern and making information about it available. Knowing what is typical for experiencers should help to alleviate any worry or confusion not only for the individual involved—but for family and friends, as well as health-care professionals and the community at-large.
The pattern of aftereffects from near-death states can best be understood if considered under the separate headings of major characteristics of psychological and physiological changes. Details and explanations follow:
MAJOR CHARACTERISTICS OF PSYCHOLOGICAL CHANGES Loss of the fear of death, more spiritual and less religious, easily engage in abstract thinking, more philosophical, can go through various bouts with depression, more generous and charitable than before, form expansive concepts of love while at the same time challenged to initiate and maintain satisfying relationships, "inner child" or unresolved issues from childhood tend to surface, less competitive, convinced of a life purpose, rejection of previous limitations in life and "normal" role-playing, heightened sensations of taste-touch-texture-smell, increased intuitive/psychic abilities plus the ability to know or "re-live" the future, charismatic, a child-like sense of wonder and joy, less stressed, more detached and objective, can continue to dissociate or "separate" from the body, easily absorbed ("merge into" whatever is focused on), hunger for knowledge and learning, highly curious.
Near-death experiencers come to love and accept others without the usual attachments and conditions society expects. They perceive themselves as equally and fully loving of each and all, openly generous, excited about the potential and wonder of each person they see. Their desire is to be a conduit of universal love. Confused family members tend to regard this sudden switch in behavior as oddly threatening, as if their loved one had become aloof, unresponsive, even uncaring and unloving. Some mistake this "unconditional" way of expressing joy and affection (heart-centered rather than person-centered) as flirtatious disloyalty. Divorce can result.
One of the reasons life seems so different afterward is because the experiencer now has a basis of comparison unknown before. Familiar codes of conduct can lose relevance or disappear altogether as new interests take priority. Such a shift in reference points can lead to a childlike naivete. With the fading of previous norms and standards, basic caution and discernment can also fade. It is not unusual to hear of near-death experiencers being cheated, lied to, or involved in unpleasant mishaps and accidents. Once they are able to begin integrating what happened to them, discernment usually returns.
Most experiencers develop a sense of timelessness. They tend to "flow" with the natural shift of light and dark, and display a more heightened awareness of the present moment and the importance of being "in the now." Making future preparations can seem irrelevant to them. This behavior is often labeled "spaciness" by others, who do their best to ignore the change in perception, although seldom do they ignore the shift in speech. That's because many experiencers refer to their episode as if it were a type of "divider" separating their "former" life from the present one.
There's no denying that experiencers become quite intuitive afterward. Psychic displays can be commonplace, such as: out-of-body episodes, manifestation of "beings" met in near-death state, "remembering" the future, finishing another's sentence, "hearing" plants and animals "speak." This behavior is not only worrisome to relatives and friends, it can become frightening to them. A person's religious beliefs do not alter or prevent this amplification of faculties and stimuli. Yet, experiencers willing to learn how to control and refine these abilities, consider them beneficial.
Life paradoxes begin to take on a sense of purpose and meaning, as forgiveness tends to replace former needs to criticize and condemn. Hard driving achievers and materialists can transform into easy-going philosophers; but, by the same token, those more relaxed or uncommitted before can become energetic "movers and shakers," determined to make a difference in the world. Personality reversals seem to depend more on what's "needed" to round out the individual's inner growth than on any uniform outcome. Although initially bewildered, families can be so impressed by what they witness that they, too, change-making the experience a "shared event."
The average near-death experiencer comes to regard him or herself as "an immortal soul currently resident within a material form so lessons can be learned while sojourning in the earthplane." They now know they are not their body; many go on to embrace the theory of reincarnation. Eventually, the present life, the present body, becomes important and special again.
What was once foreign becomes familiar, what was once familiar becomes foreign. Although the world is the same, the experiencer isn't. Hence, they tend to experiment with novel ways to communicate, even using abstract and grandiose terms to express themselves. With patience and effort on everyone's part, communication can improve and life can resume some degree of routine. But, the experiencer seems ever to respond to a "tune" no one else can hear (this can continue lifelong).
MAJOR CHARACTERISTICS OF PHYSIOLOGICAL CHANGES Altered thought-processing (switch from sequential/ selective thinking to clustered thinking: thoughts bunch together/ideas pop up), comfortable with ambiguity, heightened intelligence, more creative and inventive, unusual sensitivity to light and sound, substantially more or less energy (even energy surges in body), reversal of body clock, lower blood pressure, accelerated metabolic and substance absorption rates (decreased tolerance of pharmaceuticals and chemically treated products), often turn to alternative healthcare treatments, electrical sensitivity, synesthesia (multiple sensing), increased allergies or sensitivities, can possess ability to heal, a preference for more vegetables and grains (less of meat), physically younger looking (before and after photos can differ).
Sensitivity to light and sound can be a serious issue and may necessitate some lifestyle changes. While most experiencers learn to limit sunshine exposure, others can't get enough. Almost everyone, though, has similar difficulties with loud or discordant sounds. Many can no longer tolerate "hard" rock music. The vast majority prefer classical, melodic, and/or natural sounds, and become passionate about using music to heal.
Energy surges up and down the body happen to many, and can be accompanied by "lights" in the air. Researchers usually regard this as the release of "kundalini" (a Sanskrit term meaning "coiled energy at the base of the spine"). Supposedly, kundalini energy and spiritual energy are one in the same, yet the theory behind this idea remains unproven.
Electrical sensitivity refers to a condition whereby the forcefield or energy around an individual affects nearby electrical equipment and technological devices. Usually sporadic in effect and impact, some experiencers have noticed: watches can stop, microphones "squeal," tape recorders quit, television channels change with no one at controls, light bulbs pop, telephone "drops off," computers suddenly lose memory, and so forth. Experiencers more at ease with their new traits report fewer of these incidents than those still in the process of making adjustments.
Physical differences, along with attitudinal changes, eventually lead experiencers to alter their approach to health and healing, employment, finances, lifestyle and relationship issues. Many say that it's almost as if they have to relearn how to use their own body and brain. Once adjustments are made, the majority come to live healthy, productive lives that are happier, more spiritually-oriented and energetic than before. To deny or repress the aftereffects seems to leave individuals feeling somehow "incomplete," and can foster unwanted "breakthroughs" years later.
Aftereffects cannot be faked. Nor can you hide your response to the way they affect you (whether you realize what you are doing or not). You may be able to delay their onset or lessen the impact they have, but you cannot pretend away the complex and life-altering potential they bring. Irrespective of any drama brought on by near-death states, what happens afterward is where true value and real meaning are established.
HELPFUL NOTES Adjusting to the aftereffects takes time. The first three years tend to be the most confusing, almost as if the individual isn't "fully back." Experiencers and their families are urged to attend or start a local IANDS group, and to read books for indepth research studies about aftereffects.
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